For the One person I belive who even reads this, I know it has been awhile and I have been going though what ever it is that I am going though latly I don't know how to get myself back to that place again. Adam and I have not been to Church in awhile and I don't really know why but I know we need to get back to it. Last Time we went to XL god showed me he really is there for us when we are having a hard time. It was the last of the "XL gave me gas" and Adam's number was called for the 4 $100 gas gift cards. We have been having hard times with money and bills latly that I feel like I am going crazy at times. Also I felt God had put something on my heart and I had to do it to see how things would turn out and I am still not sure about that decsion I made weather it was good or bad or what i should still be doing about it. I went to see my sister who I had not seen or talk to in 10 months she went though alot of hard times and I felt like she needed someone since she doesn't have anyone right now she lost her son to his dad who was in and out of his life for 5 years and now she does not get to see him she has stuggled with a Drug problem and went to jail for not paying child support so she has had i hard I could go on and on about her life and how things have not went well. She needs to find God. Anyway I saw her and it was nice but My Mother was so disapointed in me for seeing her she gave me such a hard time and I cried for two days over that and sadly I am now not talking to my sister again, But I wonder if I really need that kind of sstuff in my life or wondering if I am suppose to help her I just don't know I have always heard " You can forgive some and Love them from a far"
So here I am just trying to get my life in order and my house it is such a mess there is so much to do that we can not afford I am worring about heating this winter we need to get cental heat and air but can not afford it this house is getting so small and we can not afford to move or build on , and I have a ton of laundry to do I feel like it will never all get done, and the Bills are just getting behind enough of my pitty party though I know things will not stay this way forever I am just going to try my best to give it all to God.
On the Bright side I have been enjoying the summer with Adam and Koby Koby and I did story time at the libary and we have had our trips to the park and We went to the Zoo in Atlanta as a Family I had not been in years it was so fun. Well gtg Koby needs a Nap!
